What do I feel most guilty about?
I think I touched on this before, but I’ll say it again before I go zip lining in the woods. There’s this (not so) unspoken code of conduct that women are suppose to live by. I see it in Internet memes all the time: A real woman does this, wears that, doesn’t say this, always thinks like this. These memes are usually created by men to tell women how they should and shouldn’t be. Most men who create these memes do so out of their own insecurities, but decided creating insecurities in women was much better; that way, the bar would be lowered and they would have a better chance at getting laid. What I don’t like that has been the aftermath, is how women have adapted to this way of thinking.
What I have grown to love about being a woman is that we have so many vast ways of expressing ourselves. We’re not a monolith. So when someone who looks like you tells you, “that’s not how a woman acts/speaks/think” you start to suppress your true self. You begin feeling guilty for enjoying what brings you the most pleasure (like an active sex life that doesn’t include being in a committed relationship. i’m looking at you, slut shamers).
Being a single mother, I get shammed all the time. It seems that once you have a baby, your life stops being fun. It’s no longer about you, it’s about the baby. You are required to be stressed, over protective, overworked, anxious, and selfless and if you decide to break from that norm…you’re wrong. Even now, on my amazing vacation, I’m told to feel bad that I’m enjoying myself.
I won’t do that anymore. Life is too precious to not do what brings you joy. Grab the flowers while you can still smell them. It’s not you who should feel guilty about enjoying yourself, it should be those who are too afraid to do what you’re doing. Live!
Tarot Card of the Day: The Sun. Imagine for a moment that you’re soaking in the warm rays of the sun. It feels nourishing and healing, like your aches and pains just fade away. The Sun card brings that amazing energy into your life. Vitality and health abound, while you feel assurance and clarity in all you do.